25 Things Facebook Won't Ever Know.

1. I am 100% a hypochondriac. In the past two months I have convinced myself that I have 4 different, incurable sicknesses.

2. Everyday I am disgusted at one point or another at the sickness of my own mind.

3. Sometimes at night I get so horny I have trouble sleeping.

4. I desperately want a girlfriend, and I am to the point of rushing into something without caring even if it will only last for a while.

5. I actually do really enjoy spending time with my parents. The only catch is I want them to initiate it.

6. If I didn't have such good control of my emotions, I would certainly be in jail for rage-related activities.

7. The slightest comment about my looks/personality or whatever can either send me into ecstasy or tumbling into shame/embarrassment.

8. I care very much about what people think of me. To the point where I typically won't buy clothes that I think certain circles of friends won't accept and I also dress according to who I am hanging out with.

9. There is one and only one person who knows some certain very embarrassing secrets about me. This person and me are not, and never have been good friends.

10. Sex is very embarrassing to me.

11. I am talking to someone just to spite another someone.

12. One of my top ten fantasies is for a girl to wear nothing but a stud-belt, choker type necklace, and high heels.

13. I get fucked up because I hate hearing myself talk. I think I sound like a fagot sober.

14. I blame a lot of my underlying problems on my mother. She would kill herself if she knew that. But I still love her.

15. For an arbitrary amount of time after meeting almost any girl, I consider what it would be like to date them and debate whether I want to try. I also always decide not to.

16. I strongly support many radical ideals similar to communism. Although I know true communism is unattainable because of the flaws of human nature, the truth of the matter is that 90% of the human race is fucking retarded and should not be allowed to make decisions that affect the world on the such a large scale.

18. I am very attracted to girls several years younger than me. I also realize the problems this could produce.

19. I have turned down sex way more times than I have had it. I secretly regret it.

20. I absolutely can't stand what this world is coming to. I would have no problem pulling the trigger to execute heads of important companies that are turning this country into a cesspool.

21. I hate football, basketball, and baseball especially when people have unexplainable ties to a certain team. Did you go to school there? Nope. Fuck you.

22. I can't help but think karma is real, or that God rewards and punishes people accordingly. I know Biblically that's wrong, but its just my paranoia shining through.

23. My only defense is disbelief and denial.

24. Almost daily my mom accuses me of thinking of no one but myself. I secretly want to yell back at her, "If I didn't, who the fuck would mom? No body asks me shit about myself, or how I am! No body calls me and wants to hang out, or if they do its to do drugs and even that is seldom! I wake up, drive to class, go to class, eat lunch, eat dinner, do work, go to bed, all fucking alone! Everyone in this world is too busy for me, or too caught up in their own shallow lives to care. No body sees the shit I do for them, or the decisions I make to benefit them. No one knows when I drive around lonely because I'm sick of crying in my own house at night. No body calls just to talk to me. I'm unwanted, undesired, unneeded and unnoticed." I don't yell this at her, but I convince myself that I only do think of myself, and get even more depressed.

25. I think I'm fucking stupid for writing this blog at all.